Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Royalty-Free Lyric Licenses

Purchasing a royalty-free license to a Song of the Day:

Interested in purchasing many songs at once? Interested in the fairly secret "Lifetime Subscription" option on all present and future Songs of the Days?  Tough beans, bucko, I've ended the whole program.  I could go on and on about it but eh.

If you want to join the elite, minute siblinghood who have participated in a unique presentation of one of these verses, you'll have to try and collaborate with me directly.  I'm not too hard to find.

Friday, July 19, 2013

Carting a Sick Stick: Sic a Tart Kiss on an Art Trick (Part 2: The Store)

Some Lovely Things To Sell

I've mostly suspended my efforts at "commerce," having determined myself to be simply a poor capitalist.  I should probably get rid of this link altogether.  It's a lot easier to just write in a disclaimer, however.

With respect to the "former" Media Empire, and particularly Our Flagship Media, fairly secret: the tower of approach: as fundamentally enriching as I find it to toil ceaselessly in the fields of text for art's sake, there lingers that little thing that has always been missing for me: a suitcase full of cash.

And so I set out (once upon a time, Disclaim! Disclaim!) to contrive some lovely things to sell.  If you care for the words, peruse their associated merchandise! And weep with consternation at how little is left for sale.

[I've ended the royalty free license program.  You had your chance.  It's all mine from now on for forever minus a day, assuming Disney's got my back in congress].

IT'S ALL ABOUT THE TEXT.  So why not a graphic novel?

(Please note that downloads of The Bootstrap Gospel album - see my Bandcamp page link below - includes a download of the Graphic Novel as a bonus).

Nobody EVER buys the Buys the Bootstrap Gospel Graphic Novel... (and since the digital sales provider who used to host has moved to a fee based model, nobody will. Link removed). which is CRAZY.  Crazy and wrong. The final chapter's segment, “A Poem In Ten Deaths,” with its scathing deconstruction of Schrödinger's famous thought experiment, is easily worth its wholly nominal cost alone!  A demented visual tour through the state of my mind circa 2006.

SONG LYRICS set to music and preserved as digital audio recordings.  A perfect distraction to drown out the noise of confounding existence

You can purchase most of such recordings as exist.  Preview anything for free.  I’ve got certain unreasonable hangups over the convention of the “Donations” button, but in the event that there is a Mysterious Benefactor shadowing me out there, pining only for some venue to shower me with gifts, well I've set the Greatest Hits and the altogether more challenging Transition Protocol to allow “pay what you want” pricing.  So you can go hog wild.  Or also just give me a dollar.  Well I don't get the whole dollar frankly, but you know what I mean.  Hosting and commerce courtesy of Bandcamp, who are dope, as well as fly.

THE SPIRIT is willing, but the flesh needs a Tee Shirt

Ready to purchase? Spreadshirt Store Link

Does what it says on the tee shirt.  The once and future emblem of the True Fan


What did you have in mind?

Didn't there used to be some kind of crazy home-rolled crowdfunding campaign here?  Yes you're very smart.  Shut up.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Carting a Sick Stick: Sic a Tart Kiss on an Art Trick (Part 1)

The Spirit of Salt Former Media Empire


fairly secret: the tower of approach: each day a song is added to the stack of my persistent apporach
SICKTARTAR: creative meta-commentary on songs and a marketplace

defunct and/or static:

Phree as in Phreakshow: a defunct casualty of the Death of the Age of Blogging
nude al fresco and al dente: and another
It’s Rome, Baby!: now frozen in time: a 20 year retrospective exhibition of text


Searching for the exact phrase “1,000 True Fans” on Google nets about 327,000 results.  The first is Kevin Kelly’s like-named essay.  By his own reporting it looks to be his most popular essay on The Technium and has been translated into 9 other languages.  What’s interesting about this (to me) is that Kelly’s core assertion:

“...Anyone producing works of art - needs to acquire only 1,000 True Fans to make a living”

is (quite clearly and straightforwardly, in the article) derived in its entirety from a couple of back-of-the-envelope equations (actually no envelope is required, the equations are 1,000 x $100 equals $100,000, more than enough for any creator to keep body and soul together and produce art at a near-enough-to professional level, right?... and one true fan added per day times 365 days per year times three years equals a thousand, more or less, right?).

I think this basic construction is fascinating - there’s plenty to question even if you don’t attack the basic premises (that $100 is a reasonable threshold of true fandom or that one day equals a reasonable amount of time to cultivate a true fan) - right off the bat I’d note that 1,000 divided by 3 is 333 and a third.... which happens to be about 91 and a third more days per year than a person with a very average decent day job - 5 days a week with two weeks off a year and 8 paid holidays - works.

There’s plenty of other critique - to his credit Kelly publishes some of it himself - particularly the balanced observations of composer Robert Rich - and calls for more data before apparently dropping the investigation - while letting the trope live on. Also noted Internet Guy John Scalzi’s response probably summed it up as good as any.

And still this thing, this idea, this Snappy Headline *1*0*0*0* *T*R*U*E* *F*A*N*S* lives on, is repeated, is translated into 9 other languages.  What’s to be gathered from this, I fear, is that there are far too many of us.  Making, making and wishing very much that we could not be doing it for free.  It’s a problem, I think, and probably a mistake for most.  I think most knew better once.  You played your fiddle when the work was done and didn’t expect anything from it but to pass a little sweetness in the night.  There was no recording, nothing to be saved.  Now there is far, far too much recording and Google is happy to put it online in its ongoing advertication of all human thought.

Reading my archives on It’s Rome, Baby! is often painful now because of the wild-eyed revolutionary fervor I had on about the digitalization of media... In some part at least I was purposely camping it up but still.  What kind of world is it where Rudy Rucker has to scrounge for a measly $7,000 advance on Kickstarter? I’m glad that he made it relatively quickly, and I hope come-lately’s don’t just call that good and forego pledging because of the early success.  But still.  Still!  5 bucks for the latest out of one of the wildest brains of modern SF, and a towering middle finger to the established literary order by the by.  How is that not a no-brainer?  How does that have 60 measly backers?  How is it that Rudy Rucker even needs to go out with his hat in hand to raise an advance to write a novel?  Rudy Rucker should have half a million in the bank on the strength of his collected short stories alone. It’s 6 dollars for nearly a thousand pages of stories!  DRM free, right from the source, everything anyone had to ask of digital publication.  Rucker garners 200K+ hits on Google, has nearly 5,000 Twitter followers, he’s a darling of the BoingBoing set and various related cyberpunk and transhumanist sets.  Five bucks.  What the hell is wrong with people?

This makes me understand what I actually find so disappointing about how media is shaping up so far in the digitalization age, and how it relates to my discontent with the 1,000 True Fans trope, even if it was a realistic equation:  it’s still such a consumer model.  Someone else makes, packages, hustles you up and you consume.  What is a true fan worth?  A hundred bucks.  It’s gloomy.  What I really anticipated of the revolution I sought was a new age of discovery.  Digging through the racks, turning up those gems, telling everyone you know.  I thought the age would bring a new era of “paperback original” quality fiction, and sure they’d be rough around the edges but weren’t a lot of Phil Dick’s now-revered novels?  Surely we’d see brilliant ad hoc syndicates forming around micropayment subscription schemes, beautiful bite-sized textual content for all these pocket computers of modern times, surely you’d see independent editor-artist duos wading into the arena of independent self-publishing, splitting the publishing-house and outmoded physical production cost cuts with the reader to produce fully professional fiction and non-fiction at a price to challenge the lumbering legacy model’s lurching shamble into the 21st Century.

Instead it seems to me the world of entertainment, art, media, whatever you want to call it, is still dominated by legacy “producers” (aggregators and packagers) at every turn, still screwing naive artists with crooked contracts and work-for-hire, and the “alternative,” internet-savvy world has its handful of darlings big enough to make the San Diego Comic-Con, its inside track who may occasionally promote a new author (who is almost certainly being published by a large house which may or may not be a subsidiary of some media conglomerate tentacle demon but which is certainly transacting it all on the same-old advance and royalty scheme).  And they tell us what is cool, and they tell us what to buy.

Tracking down and grooming a thousand “I’ll buy everything” superconsumers to provide a middle class income might be a decent trick for someone but I personally think it would be a whole lot cooler to be part of some million-strong global club who pools a hundred bucks a year each and goes out and finds artists and radically transforms their existence - here’s one and a half million dollars, spend the next decade just making your art.  Gosh maybe it would all just destroy people.  Oh well - I guess there are some interesting projects being made possible by Kickstarter.  Right?

Friday, June 21, 2013

Also Willing

Behold, a tee-shirt for the Song of the Day and the [oh hell the rabbit hole of keeping up with the social media jones.  Used to be a link to the Spirit of Salt web domain here but it was too underutilized to keep paying for, and let lapse, which is why these t-shirts now inexplicably provide free advertising for some Austrian purveyor of bespoke, special salt]

Its slogan (if you have trouble reading it because it is in pseudo-Hip-Hop lettering, strangely formatted and partially backwards) reads THE SPIRIT IS WILLING - THE FLESH IS ALSO WILLING, in reference to Song of the Day no. 2.2732.  The whole thing was hand drawn (like with pencils and physical pens full of actual liquid ink on paper and stuff) by me.  Because I am multi-talented.

But wait, I hear you protest, Song of the Day no. 2.2732 won't be published online until October 25th of 2018! [I can't remember if I wrote this before or after the big long summer break, so this date is probably off now].  To which I say you are really good at math!  Also, great optimism!

It's actually possible the phrase will pop up in an earlier song; as I've noted before the hand-written songs are not all transcribed to digital and therefore not all machine searchable.  As far as I can tell I coined this phrase in this exact incarnation, but it's not terribly original - the basic inversion (the flesh is also willing) can be found in a 19th century German book on Christian Ethics.

It is available in two flavors:

Maximum Savour - white graphics on colored backgrounds. Note you can customize the colors.
     - Standard Tee
     - Heavyweight Tee
     - Women's Fitted Tee

You can also try this design out on other products in Spreadshirt's Product Designer - it doesn't work with all of their products however: Maximum Savour Design

Dark Savour - black graphics on white or colored backgrounds (my personal preference).
     -Standard Tee
     -Heavyweight Tee
     -Women's Fitted Tee

Dark Savour Product Designer page

My Spreadshirt storefront page features more designs by my brother, Actual Artist David Hamlow.

All proceeds of sales will go to support a thing I'm going to tell you about pretty soon.  Just to be clear it ain't gonna be a charity, though [blah blah blah, out of date, times change, nobody every buys anything and it all goes to support nothing, probably? When taking it all down is more work than leaving it all and just jamming in a few disclaimers.  Which also no-one will ever read].

Sunday, June 16, 2013

I Love the Song of the Day

A few days ago I noticed that I’d never selected a set of favorite songs for volume 2.4 of the Song of the Day, a deficiency I needed to rectify since I was nearly done with the posting of volume 2.5, which runs through August 10 of 2007.

I write these lyrics longhand in hardbound blank books: these “volumes” are just the various books.  I give them titles and they have a tendency to develop vague themes but the divisions are basically arbitrary.  I posted a picture of them all a little over 6 years ago: as chance would have it concluding with the (then unfinished) volume that I’m posting right now (ten more volumes have been added since).

Writing “a song a day” seems like an easy hook: but over the years I’ve come to feel that however accessible, the “high concept” is actually a detriment.  There’s too much of it.  As the raw output of an unredacted creative process the quality of a given offering can vary wildly, to say nothing of the content, which more than occasionally veers into the profane, lascivious, solipsistic or (even worse), religious.

Picking favorites out of the volumes is an effort to curate the flood somewhat, though I don’t know that anyone really pays attention to the sidebar.  It’s not a scientific process.  I pick five songs per volume by paging through and sticking a tape flag on whatever grabs me, and when I run out of tape flags halfway through, flipping back and forth between the latest attraction and the songs I’ve already tagged, trying to decide which one I like better.  With a few of the volumes I’ve found myself wondering, well in, if I’ll find 5 decent songs (though it’s never really a problem in the end).

No such problems this volume though - there are tons of songs I feel like were good enough to make the cut, songs like Work Faster, Partisans, Peace, Turning Point, Heat, The Spot, Time Tunnel, and Bridge to Nowhere.  I ended up genuinely mulling back and forth over a few selections in the final list.

And there it is: the truth is that I love the song of the day.  I’m really attached to it.  If I could justify it I suspect I would spend countless hours on this bizarre congregation, transcribing the remaining texts and affixing tags to the backlog of online posts and diagramming the oddball thematic connections that find their way into it all, connections that can only be approximated with searches.

I love it, but what to do with it?  At the end of the day, regardless of whether any of it is good or bad, it’s an incredibly quixotic pursuit.  In this age of Vine, Instagram and Pinterest supplanting Tumblr (by virtue of the latter trending too wordy, presumably), I’m producing verse, stubbornly free of any graphic adornment... And not even “high” verse, I don’t know anything about modern poetry least of all how to emulate it.  What I’m cranking out rather rests firmly in the idiom of the pop lyric, though generally lacking things that make pop lyrics catchy, like choruses, or being about young love.

I don’t know.  I don’t know.  Maybe it’s just there and that’s all there is to it.  I’m no longer sure where I was going with this, and anyway I’m beat and this day’s song was written hours and hours ago.

And tomorrow there'll be two.

Monday, June 10, 2013

flash glimpse

"You are never the same after you've had that one flash glimpse down the cellular time tunnel"

-Timothy Leary, High Priest

Slightly unnerved to discover that Google's first result for "cellular time tunnel" is not the Leary quote but an essay I archived over at The Museum* about Narnia (really about time and perception but anyway).

I've never read Leary's book, in fact, or anything of substance by him.  I'm aware of Leary purely as part of a cultural milieu I was once deeply fascinated by but which seems increasingly irrelevant as the years go by.  What remains of note to me are a few of the mordant fragments of post-mortem that doomed culture produced, somewhere around the beginning of my life - Hunter Thompson's Wave soliloquy, of course, and also this insightful passage from Adam Smith's Powers of Mind** where I first encountered said Leary quote:

"Aldous Huxley, the novelist, had written of psychedelics in Heaven and Hell and The Doors of Perception, which described his own experience in the early 1950's with mescaline.  Huxley brought great cultural depth to the experience, and Leary went to see him, since Huxley was the Respectable Intellectual of the Further Reaches.  Leary's visit in 1962 brought forebodings to Huxley. "He talked such nonsense," Huxley wrote to Humphrey Osmond. "...this nonsense talking is just another device for annoying people in authority, the reaction of a mischievous Irish boy to the headmaster of the school.  One of these days the headmaster will lose patience - and then good-bye to the research. I am fond of [him], but why, oh why, does he have to be such an ass? I have told him repeatedly that the only attitude for a researcher in this ticklish field is that of an anthropologist living in the midst of a tribe of potentially dangerous savages.  Go about your business quietly, don't break the taboos or criticize the locally accepted dogmas.  Be polite and friendly - and get on with the job. If you leave them alone, they will probably leave you alone."

But Leary thought he was on the edge of a revolution, and did not heed the advice.  "You are never the same after you've had that one flash glimpse down the cellular time tunnel," he said.  "Turn on."  The savages did not like having their customs taunted, and they put the anthropologist into a big iron pot and boiled him for supper."

It is many years after I first read that (in a period of my life relevant in all sorts of ways I'll tell you about sometime if you take me out for a cup of coffee or a decent beer) and I think maybe this casting is a little hard on Leary.  Society's Hammer was coming down on any socially active outcropping of the New Age regardless.  Leary just got to be the poster boy for the rise and fall.  Even Thompson had some pointed words for Leary, though he ultimately cut him more slack (in a nearby passage to The Wave in the same book):

"This was the fatal flaw in Tim Leary's trip. He crashed around America selling "consciousness expansion" without ever giving a thought to the grim meat-hook realities that were lying in wait for all the people who took him too seriously.  After West Point and the Priesthood, LSD must have seemed entirely logical to him... but there is not much satisfaction in knowing that he blew it very badly for himself, because he took too many others down with him.

Not that they didn't deserve it: No doubt they all Got What Was Coming To Them.  All those pathetically eager acid freaks who thought they could buy Peace and Understanding for three bucks a hit.

But their loss and failure is ours, too."

In any event, that one little phrase apparently put some sort of hook in me, as it turns out this is not the first time it crops up in the songs.  I wouldn't be surprised to find it wasn't the last, for that matter.

Turn on.

*I note as I compose this that while I changed the title of The Museum to something a little more genteel, its URL (which was created by Blogger's automated protocols and is thus based on the original title) still communicates the original title in all its profane glory.  I take this as a not altogether comfortable indication that my fundamental nature is probably not subject to rehabilitation.

**Adam Smith as in the finance author and onetime PBS anchor and editor George Goodman's author's alias, as opposed to the 18th Century philosopher - and in reference to the long out-of-print and increasingly obscure mid-seventies tome on the New Age movement (more or less).  Which growing obscurity is a shame, in my opinion.

Friday, June 7, 2013


We took a vacation on the North Shore of Lake Superior, in a rental cabin (actually one of a group of really lovely pine log structures, a place called Stonegate) right on a private stretch of granite shore.  On the morning of the last day I looked out the window to find some mysterious and frankly sketchy looking couple; a guy was standing by their car right in front of our cabin, and the woman was leaning way out at the edge of the water doing... something.  Honestly I thought she was quite possibly throwing up.  Nobody else was up yet; and we had the place basically to ourselves at the time.  So I went out to tell these people that, you know, this was not public access to the water.

The guy was slumped against the car smoking a cigarette and something in his demeanor slowed me down.  I couldn't see the woman any more from where I was (the cabin was up some stairs).  And so I asked the guy what was up and he said, in a kind of voice that communicates that he has been going through some stressful times, probably for a while - "she's got her brother's ashes, she's taking them to the lake" but I was already in full retreat at that point, I was like "yeah you take it easy man" over my shoulder on my way back inside.  I took my coffee to a chair where I couldn't see out the window for a while and when I looked out again they were gone.

I think I wrote this song about that (but was it at the time or when reminded on a different vacation?); in retrospect I suspect I wrote it in an embarrassing assumption that there was a some relatively direct connection from Lake Superior to the Mississippi, surely the St. Croix valley thing connects somehow?  I think you actually have to go by way of Lake Michigan...

Apparently at one point they were contemplating digging a canal!

Friday, May 31, 2013

nine timely stitches

To say that I have a love-hate relationship with the song of the day is a serious understatement at best.  Creating a body of poetry in the 21st century using only the scraps of time available in an otherwise very average American life is, to put it generously, a Quixotic undertaking.  The feedback I receive for such is so close to nothing as to make little odds, though I deeply appreciate that impossibly attenuated strand of response it does generate - I doubt the tiny handful of those who pay attention to it at all realize how much it truly does mean to me.

But at the end of the day I have to be right with it for what it is within my own self.  The nature dictates that I will sift through a lot of dross as the days roll on.  And very often I think, I can stop, I can stop doing this and time will just roll over it and it will vanish without a trace.  A couple of people will say "aww" and that will be the end of it.  Sometimes I think, I will stop and not say a word about it, just let the weekly status reports clock the ever-increasing stagnation of the song count and continue posting the backlog and when the songs run out just stop and say not a word about it.  Archive it and move on.  Six years to some sort of closure.

Sometimes this seems less crazy and obtuse and absurd than continuing to blunder along for another 19 years, not getting appreciably any better as far as I can tell, sharpening the stick of my evident pointlessness and obscurity for a further pair of decades.

And then a day like today will come along and I will rediscover a song like Lists which I just love so god damned much. I have no recollection of writing it at all (again this is very much the rule rather than the exception) and it didn't make enough of an impression on me when I transcribed it a year or two ago that I remembered it.  The internet is notoriously full of lists, I myself despite decades of contrary evidence tend to expect far too much from lists, there are whole websites and books and movements dedicated to supercharged listing for greater effectiveness and personal fulfillment.

Such a delight to come upon this nasty indictment of listing, a mean little lash with its barb of twin references to "getting things done"-esque aphorisms nested in the second-to-last couplet.  Death is stalking you, it reminds me, and it will win in the end.  Best laid plans etc.  Quit whining and get on with it.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

listen, lovely, one, two, three

I went through this phase of writing lyrics with rhymed triplets.  Some long-range effect of my nearly inexcusable "transformation" of Dante's Inferno? Of course these odd little products ain't terza rima, just straight up triplets, and every time I read one I it's a structure I find deeply unsettling.  The ghost limb, that chopped off last half of the second couplet that never was, hangs off the end of every verse.  Are your children addicted to symmetry?

Monday, April 29, 2013

When I was a fool

I'm not going to lie to you, the idea behind which I conceived and launched Sick Tartar was for it to be the promotion, meta-commentary and monetization (the foulest word in any language) hub for the Songs of Days, but whoa, I'm really bad at that.  And seriously, do I have a product?  One of three critical legs of the Kickstarter stool* is that by buying in, you will make this thing happen, and if you don't, you know, maybe it won't.  And if you have an investment in whatever it is happening, then you feel responsible if you don't support it and it doesn't happen.  I've written almost 4,000 lyrics in virtual obscurity, I have a backlog of well over 2,000 songs to post.  I would be pressed to construct a compelling narrative that anything short of death or disaster would compel me to abandon it, and anyways,  if I did give up on the project and just kept posting the rest of what I had, nobody would know for 6 years.  This is a difficult situation to build tension around.

I guess that's not the real reason but anyway, I'm tired of thinking about what things aren't or why I don't.  While I continue to withhold my hilarious parody Sick Tartar campaign complete with bizarre non-pitch video and goals from the few hundred I'd need to finally get the fabulous home studio of tomorrow mark two set up all the way up to the final stretch goal of $100 billion that will render me the richest person on earth by a comfortable margin, I feel like the one component of the blog I can get behind is the meta-commentary.  Which is what this is.

To be able to write effective songs in the fashion of traditional classics, things like Scarborough Fair, Pretty Polly or When I Was In My Prime, is an aspiration as dear to my heart as to be able to write a pop lyric with the ear-worm hook of a One Hit Wonder.  While my efforts at the latter tend to be purely satirical I have taken regular stabs at the former that are embarrassingly earnest.  A bad wannabe catchy pop lyric merely falls flat but a fabricated "traditional" effort adds a mawkish buffoonery of ersatz old-timey-ness.  Still if I'm going to cringe and wince every time the tone of a song of the day is pure tin clank I could never go on.  I am reminded of the line (I think from an old edition of the Rolling Stone Record Guide) that noted Led Zeppelin's "When the Levee Breaks" as something to the effect of being their first blues rework that didn't sound like a "bizarre parody".

This being said, an interesting thing that's happening as I post songs these days is that I hardly remember writing any of them.  The first series of 1,001 songs wasn't like this.  I'd held onto the finished series for over 5 years before I started posting it online.  I'd done other things with the songs, some versions, some performance, and I'd picked the books up and read selections of them many times.  I'd picked my favorites.  These days though I'm looking at songs I've generally looked at once (with a few exceptions) since I wrote them, they day I transcribed them into an electronic text document.  Sometimes they stand out in that process but I tend to be pushing to transcribe things as quickly as I can.  Most of what I'm posting was transcribed something like a year ago.  It's fun, meeting these songs for the first time (well, when I like them it's fun, not as much otherwise although some things I hate so much that it's funny).

In any event, it is only to observe that I think that Narcissus may be my first pseudo-traditional effort that I actually like.  I don't know that it's quite a classic, but I like it.

*I forgot at the time to list what the other 2 legs of this theoretical "stool" are and have since forgotten.  Someday I will perhaps reconstruct this thought and enlighten everyone.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Maybe never will there be rewards

A hypothetical consumer of the full spectrum of my prodigious textual output could tell you for nothing that I am borderline obsessed with Kickstarter.  I dig the weird fairy tales it creates, the psychological structuring of successful stretch-goal fueled campaigns, the actually pretty regular very cool things it actuates in the real world.  In my innermost demon-haunted world though I'm ensorcled by the whole hypothetical merit-based lottery aspect of it, I love the fantasy of the big bucks, even if it's probably mostly an illusion, the hyper-successes being a portal for their unfortunate creators into a world of manufacturing hassles, brutal reward fulfillment schedules and razor-thin margins that can tip a projects budget so quickly into the red (see Steve Jackson's comments on the massive Ogre Kickstarter, ferisntance, or the ongoing commentary of Double Fine's hugely goal-breaking and currently fund-strapped adventure game project).

I can personally never come up with a project though because the only thing I routinely produce is, as previously mentioned, volumes of text.  My most routine output being, for want of a better term, poetry, for God's sake.  I used to make a little bit of music and very occasionally make a little visual art (observe my bold and original logo design for this new little corner of the increasingly irrelevant text-o-sphere) but I've found it terribly difficult to persist in these pursuits lately.

If I had my druthers, if I were free of the specter of need, that is, I do believe this is what I would do though: my scribbles, my tunes, my doodles.  I know I do not deserve these things, that I have not earned them.  And the bootstrap gospel with its good news revival message of the path to pull oneself up to the next level of everything is a book I've not yet found to read.

But anyway I was joking with Thomas over dinner the other night that I couldn't deal with the hoops and restrictions of Kickstarter anyway and as such I was going to roll my own project and call it Sick Tartar and now here it is and I'm scratching my head, wondering what am I going to do with this now?  If nothing else I guess I can use it to cut any and all talk of lucre, of my pessimistic musings on the utility of my dismal obsession with putting one word after another, of my ponderings on existing as a creator on the thinner than hair thing mile-long trailing edge of the long long tail from my other textual properties.  Maybe it is just a joke.  Maybe I'll show it to no one, ever.  I chose to begin it, nevertheless.

And the title? Naturally, from a song of the day.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

hello cruel world

My old nemesis!... We meet again, but this time the advantage is mine! Ha! Ha! Ha!